Motivation

I'm Caitlyn and I'm an alcoholic a chocoholic.

I'm a planner.  There was once a time when I was so motivated to lose weight that I spent all my time pinning exercises and motivational quotes on Pinterest.   Then I would plan out my weekly workouts.  But it never got much farther than there.  Instead I would go to the gym with my boyfriend and do whatever he wanted to to.  It was just easier than going by myself.  Then, we got busy and stopped going. 

I need to find my motivation again.  Start eating healthier and going back to the gym.

In my planning phase, I had written down some reasons why I wanted to lose weight, kind as a reminder to myself why I want to do this.

Here are a few of those reasons:

1. So I stop wearing out the inner thighs of my pants.   It never fails.  All of my jeans become destroyed all at once.  I go shopping to get new pants and I end up feeling like Regina, wanting to give up on jeans because it seems like sweats are all that fit me right now.
2. I won't dread seeing myself in pictures.  It seems kind of ironic.  I'm a photographer and take pictures of everything around me, yet turning the camera around freaks me out a little.  I don't know if its because the people who have taken pictures of me are bad photographers or I just look horrible in photographs, I just don't want to feel that way anymore. 
3. I'm not engaged,  but I want to look amazing in my wedding dress when I am. I hope this is self-explanatory. 
4. So I can look in a mirror without picking myself apart.  I don't think I'm part of the cliche, i.e. Mean Girls, Mirror Scene.  But there are times when I do that, and I wish I didn't.
   
5. Just to prove to myself that I CAN.